We are now a month away from my favourite job so far being disestablished. Newshub, one of the main national news operations in New Zealand, will go away because Warner-Brothers Discovery is not profiting off it.
I have been at this job for a long time. And I am not tired of it. I actually love it. I am processing the fact that I will not be able to continue doing this. At least not like it has been until now.
The newsroom has been my second (or third) home. The people there I admire and learn from every day. It feels exciting to be there making a daily TV show for people to be informed, for power to be held to account (and I know it could be much better).
I am still processing the loss. I still feel anger, sadness, denial, negotiation, the works.
My psychologist says I am doing the right things and it should be alright. But it is still not easy. I will get there, there are harder and easier days.
I confess I hoped I could find a new job quickly and move on. The market out there is rough. There are not many jobs in media in Aotearoa right now. And there are a lot of people scrambling about for the little work available.
Someone shared a very useful blog post with a Redundancy Checklist. It has helped me, maybe it can help others too.
I love cutting the news for New Zealand. I will miss this.
And yet I am also curious and hoping, as this chapter ends, the new one will be a good one. Where I can enjoy time with my loved ones. Where I can still be useful and have a feeling of purpose.
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